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Forced
00:58 Apr 22 2007
Times Read: 549

Thoughts of giving up float through her mind.

She doesn't understand how it is that

They don't see her...

They don't acknowledge her...

They treat her as if she's something they can just walk through.



She cannot fathom how to live a life

That is not full of pain or regret.

A life where she matters...

A life in which she's more than a friend...



If only she could find that life...

Like she was in a movie...

One with a happy ending where she

wouldn't have to hide behind her mask of lies.



She's tired of acting like she's ok...

Especially when on the inside she's far from it.

Truthfully, she's so torn up inside,

you wouldn't be able to stand it if you knew.



If you only knew what she goes through

just to force a smile and a laugh.

Death's Mistress
00:55 Apr 22 2007
Times Read: 550

A full Moon in a cloudless sky

Stares intently into my soul

Languidly examining my innermost thoughts

And knows of my black heart

It bestows upon me a rare gift

The gift of Death



Its ghostly luminescence

Lazily twirls in the air

Softly revealing the long hidden secrets

Of the flickering White and Blue Stars

And depositing Them onto my fingertips

I hear Their call and I obey



I hold the glow of the Moon in my palm

The solemn shimmer of Death

And Death walks beside me

In me

Of me

Lurking deep within my soul



For I am Death's Mistress

And wherever I may travel

Death runs swift at my heels

And We Two declare

None shall be spared this day

Sanity Gone
00:54 Apr 22 2007
Times Read: 551

I gasped for my sanity as it rolled

like drops of blood from my finger tips



I gasped with desperation for air

as the walls came closer and closer



The air grew thinner and musty

And my insanity became ever more apparent



My eyes gave out as I watched the clouds scatter

In the sky laced with silver lining



The walls came crashing inward

and my body stood motionless as I witnessed the demise



I gasped for a breath of sanity

just one breath of reality

Outsider
00:53 Apr 22 2007
Times Read: 552

Darkness surrounds me.

I can feel that vast void,

All around me.

A cold nothingness,

From every direction.

Every place I go,

No matter how famliar,

I can never call home.

I'm an outcast to society.

Just a thought drifting in the wind.

It's been awhile,

Since I've enjoyed the sunlight.

I've forgotten the feeling,

Of being able to smile.

My world is nothing but Loneliness.

I still can't find what has

Been keeping me here.

For so long.

Epiphany
00:53 Apr 22 2007
Times Read: 553

Green velvet finds me in my dreams,

Stripped turbulent and ripped at seams,

This carpet at the end will lie,

Emerald heaven, and mirrored sky.



Through traveled toes, subconscious streams curl,

Weariness emerges and worries unfurl.

Severing Silence unto a dreamer implores,

"What is forsaken; forgot in the moor?



Why, the song of the Wind will tell God of your tale,

You must know you are never alone in the vale.

For before you men have come and gone,

Soaking newfound peace to be risen with dawn."



I listen to the Silence that whispers to me,

Knowing truth and longing for a future memory. . . I turn.

Time hurries forward, to the hours of present,

The floor rises to my knees, and there sighs repentance.



Often dreams soar to that place in the vale,

Where minds do question and bound hearts do wail,

But now I recall, where Silence did play,

Distant pipes resounding in the yawn of new day.

Manic
00:52 Apr 22 2007
Times Read: 554

Tears play with a dazzled smile,

Touching the fate of the heart.



Unfulfilled commitments ashamed,

Creating their own world of reality,

Lost in a maze of hazardous emotions,

To grasp only the realization of insanity.



Alone standing here,

No one can hear the screams of fear and

dread,

Longed for is safety -comprehension of normal,

Yet beauty sets in and drowns the soul,

With promises she can't ever keep.



Take away my eyes who see only delusions,

Destroyed and cut down by the unfeeling.



Create a peaceful world of balance,

To conquer a rising and falling perception.



Misunderstood, capturing emotions unheard of,

Acceptance denied,

Love ashamed abandons the sight,

Twisting, Turning, Puncturing the soul.

Drowning
00:52 Apr 22 2007
Times Read: 555

Drowning in emotions

Disappearing in my feelings

Fumbling for my way

Looking for the exit

Falling down again

Loosing my footing

Clawing the ground

Struggling to stay afloat

Screamin in silence

Calling for help

Sinking in quicksand

Submitting to the world

Gasping for breath

Failing to win

Fighting still

Tumbling into shame

Hiding from reason

Crying out loud

Warning those close

Hating them there

Cursing everything

Drowned by emotions

Dreamless
00:50 Apr 22 2007
Times Read: 556

A perpetual moon glows silently on a corrupted society, as an endless array of soulless ungodly creatures spring forth from the depths of hell to prey on the unsuspecting proprietors of an unwiling earth.

With each breath of forbidden passions, a solitude flow of unforgettable feelings rushes about a world caked with chaos and deception.

All while a childs inner demonic intuition lashes out onto another and there in lies the lives of two lonely lovers kept apart by nothing more than distance...

Darkness
00:50 Apr 22 2007
Times Read: 557

The night falls in a heavy suffocating cloak, cold and alone are we.



The emotion for which you lust flares once, then dies, smothered by a velvet nothingness.



All hope must die, your soul thrives no more.



How could you not understand?



Our dark emotions surround us, crying, we are fallen.

Reality Undefined
00:49 Apr 22 2007
Times Read: 558

The world slowly fades from me.

I'm starting to cease to be.

I always ask myself the same question.

I'm always on the verge of my confession.

In a quiet deafening explosion,

A drop of water is lost in an ocean.

My essence is being erased.

My imprint on the world is defaced.

In a justified moralistic,

The lines of your sanity begin to blur.

I'm everywhere at once, outside, inside.

But I was never really real, I lied!

I come apart and go back together.

I'm gone, but here I am forever.

I'm just another entity in your mind.

I'm just your reality undefined.

I'm Fine
00:49 Apr 22 2007
Times Read: 559

This anger is boiling.

Festering inside me.

It wants to erupt.

But it will remain hidden.

Away from prying eyes.

Hidden deep within my heart.

Away from everyone.

Painful memories.

Lies.

Betrayal.

No dealings.

Just forget it.

The anger will remain.

But my face won't show.

My heart won't tell.

I'm fine.

Perfectly fine.

Miss Cheerful.

As always.

Fuck You
00:46 Apr 22 2007
Times Read: 560




Fuck the power,

over people that he has.

Fuck the grin,

and the evil that's within.

Fuck the walk,

the I'm better than you stride.

Fuck the talk,

and the secret that he hides.

Fuck the rapist,

and the violation and the pain.

Fuck the weak,

and the power that he gains.

Fuck the liars,

and fuck those who don't believe.

Fuck death,

and while your at it just fuck life.

Fuck the strong,

and the beater of the wife.

Fuck the people that you trust and trust again.

Fuck the evil that is hiding deep within.



There is no difference between being raped

and being pushed down a flight of cement steps

except the wounds also bleed inside.



There is no difference between being raped

and being run over by a truck

except that afterward men ask if you enjoyed it.



There is no difference between being raped

and being bit on the ankle by a rattlesnake

except that people ask if your skirt was short

and why you were out alone anyhow.



There is no difference between being raped

and going head first through a windshield

except that afterward you are afraid

not of cars, but half the human race.



Rape fattens on the fantasies of the normal male

like a maggot in garbage........

Torment
00:45 Apr 22 2007
Times Read: 561

A weight falls heavily upon me -

A steady pull inside my brain.

In one room I seek love and understanding -

In another I purge the guilt and pain.

My guilt never leaves.

The pain only deepens.

My life is a wild rotation from one room to the other,

Locked in a ceaseless circle of torment -

A game of chess I cannot win.

I stand up, throat on fire, head spinning, heart pounding;

Begging for an end, any end, to this hell.

I gaze into the mirror, wiping my mouth,

Wondering who I have become;

A drawn and pale face, dull, expressionless eyes.

I run my hands through my hair

Hoping it will quiet the screams in my head -

But it doesn't, and tomorrow the game will start again.

Simplicity
00:44 Apr 22 2007
Times Read: 562

Simplicity,

the teardrops falling,

acid from your eyes

I lie awake and count the seasons

of your shadowed mind.

Your mystery’s consuming,

your black and white surrounds,

decides

Your consequences filling me

tell me you tried to hide again.



Lurking in your deadly night

of poisoned wells and shadowed halls

I tried to penetrate the Mask of Hope

and I prayed you’d be alright.

But then I saw you,

you broke the silence with your pain

Now you lay broken,

you fell apart and nothing stays.



Can you look far away

from this promising breath,

And could you teach me of

your fearless insanity?

Have you ever thought

of anything more then this,

Your bleeding bottle,

your one-a-day existence?



I taste your memories;

you know the rain can’t fill your days.

This drizzling pattern complicates

and erases your obsessive ways



In this existence.

In this simplicity.